Feel very boring today

Dreaming of good life . A luxury lifestyle. If I can turn back the clock I want to change my destiny by creating new opportunities. By grabing whatever chances that come my way. As it is now too late for that. If I can turn back the clock there were many things that I want do.

What to do. I have two kids. They need my love and guidance  . They need to grow. In a challenging world 

How can I . That my  responsibility.....sigh